In Spirit and in Truth

I don't know if I'm taking this out of context, but it just occurred to me that when Scripture says to "Worship in spirit and in truth" that it is perhaps referring to seeking God with the right motivation. If I seek Christ for any other reason than to know Him, I seek Him falsely. My heart is wicked right? Then it is not likely that my motivation for seeking Christ at any given time could be purely to know Him. Let me give an illustration:

I want to be a better witness at work, so I start to "practice" better Christianity in order that I might gain something. It's subtle, but nevertheless wrong. I don't attain anything good because I strive to be a better Christian. I don't have favor with God or people because I read more, pray more, or serve more. I do want to be a more Godly man, but not in reverse order...What I mean is, everything is a by-product of knowing Christ. I don't follow Him SO THAT I can be a Godly man. I am a Godly man as a result of following Him. This means that my "slavery" to Christ is purely that. I love Him because He loved me first, not so I can show the world what a Christian looks like. I AM a Christian, I don't DO Christianity.

My thoughts should be, "I want to be closer to Jesus, and know Him, and do HIS will." If I seek Christ for my own will to be done i.e. be a better friend, husband or father(last two not yet realized) I fool myself into a false faith.

My affections should be simple. Yet, because I am selfish and prideful, even when I am "following" the Lord it is more often than not for my own agenda to be realized. A good gage for this is to see how you handle adversity, or even and obstacle of any kind. How do you or I react? If it is not as Christ would, then perhaps my devotion to Him is less than genuine. I don't mean to sound harsh, trust me, I am a grace guy. But I want my faith to be real, not conditional. So if I am to "worship Him in spirit and in truth," then my prayer should be for Christ to be my reason for everything. A prayer like:

"Jesus, no matter how this thing in my life works out, let me remain faithful to You."

We all have things we want in life, a better job, a Godly family, a pure relationship. But to attain those things at the expense of true faith is dangerous, and in the end impossible.

"Lord let my devotion to You be true. Let me worship in spirit and in truth. I want You only. If I were the only soul on earth, let my heart still be Yours. Thank You for always being true, and faithful!"